When the Answer is "Not Yet."
I'm back with another blog post! I wish I could upload something new each day, but you know how life gets. Anyways, I've been struggling with the subject matter of this blog post for quite some time now. I'm 25. I have a degree. I have a good job. I have my own place. I pay my own bills. I have a great social life, supportive parents, and I'm blessed with an amazing boyfriend. My life is great. I'm very blessed, BUT my biggest fear is becoming stagnant. Here's the thing. My job is cool. I make good money, my boss is lenient, and my duties aren't super overwhelming. I'm comfortable, but I know this is not what I want long-term. If you know my testimony, then you know that God showed me that I would have a brand and reach women by mentoring, having conferences, and writing.
However, I have the worst fear of getting stuck at my job. I see tons of older folks who have worked the same job for 25 years plus, and it frightens me that the same will happen to me. Don't get me wrong... I don't hate my job or anything, but I'm not passionate about it. I just do it so my bills are paid. But I want to do what makes my heart flutter. Obviously blogging and being super transparent is what makes me happy because I do it for little to nothing right now, and have been for almost four years now.
Do I resent God because his answer is not yet? A little bit to be honest. Sometimes I have these moments where I get super frustrated. I cry. Feel a little depressed. Pray and then move on until the next hiccup comes. Am I selfish for feeling this? Perhaps. But I'm human. So I'm writing this blog post for all the millennials who are in the same boat. Most of us are creatives and want to own our own businesses. We don't want to work for someone for 40 years and then retire. We want to build our own empires while also enjoying life and watching our children grow up.
It's OK to feel frustrated, but stay the course. Keep pushing towards that dream, and if God promised it to you, no one can take it away. Yes, waiting on God's timing is extremely challenging, but he knows what is best for you.
What is your biggest fear right now?